Mmm!!
I was in 8th std probably; when I saw her for the first time!! Perhaps not for the first time!! It felt like I know her before and she is the one! Maybe that was what people call as loving someone at first sight! Haha!! Let me not be that cheesy that she will fall Sick after reading this! I was kinda guy in school who was a bit good in studies in my school! But always interested in extra curricular activities and mischievous stuffs more!! And yes!! Have been very much stubborn since I was a kid! Didn't know much about her!! Researched! What most guys do basically!! And I never knew when I started liking her so much that I used to feel like okay we can be together in future!! Haha! Good old days!! I always thought she is such an angry bird and maybe I never wanted to fall into any trouble at that time being a decent guy in the eyes of my parents and teachers, which she still thinks I used to have fear of telling her! Maybe! But I don't know! Anyway!! It feels funny how I never interacted with her! Seriously?!
Anyway! Time flies and we landed up in college!! I always thought once our 12th board is over; I would tell her about this , no matter whatever be the consequences!! Now a days; when we both talk in WhatsApp she teases me how I remember small small details about her! May be her roll number in 12th Board or be it her rank in a particular entrance examination!! You may forget the girl you saw and liked her appearance for a moment in the mall last week; You may forget the girl you match with last week in Tinder!! But!! You can never ever forget someone and these tiny details if you really liked (and loved) her with all your heart. Anyway! Our last exam was Botany practical and it was on 01 April 2012! I remember she came with Uncle to give the exam and she left as the next day was AIPMT Prelims!! And I never met her after that!
After board was over; everyone got busy! Later on I got to know that she and that guy are together and I have been like if two people are together I don't disturb anyone's personal life for my own happiness or self interest!! So! She has been such a character in my life whose chapter was never started and never ended yet she was the only serious type crush that I had!! Haha!
Few days in OTA and I used to see posts regarding photography from her! And whatever may be the past I respect every form of art! Maybe that was the reason we started talking in Insta! Then 16 Feb 2019! We started talking in WhatsApp! Honestly I can say one thing when I started talking I didn't have an idea that she had a breakup! And when I knew her story, my respect for her brave soul just increased! And after knowing that also! I never tried to flirt just because she's single now! No! I don't know in what way she will take that! Though I had or I may have feelings for her! Maybe a small one; but a friendship should not go away! She is the one among very few people in life who supported me throughout my tough times! She is the one who listens to me though I know how boring I am when it comes to conversation!! She is the one who despite of such things in life smiles! She is the one who teases me all the time asking who's my crush though I think she already knows that! She is the one with whom I feel comfortable in talking and sharing stuffs which I never did with anyone else! And what not! The list goes on! There are different kinds of brave people!
And she is one of a kind!
And I really like the way she is!
I always believe that liking and loving are two different things and I don't know what it is! But yes! She is such a good girl!
Today is her birthday! And I was thinking to tell her something but you know what stops me? I just don't want to lose her(again?)!! My sister knows us and she was suggesting me to write something for her as well! I was thinking to write something like my sister does! Very difficult words at times! Tough to understand! But I preferred expressing myself in simple words in English!
I don't know future! But I will always wish she stays happy and blessed!
It's like! What you love in childhood stays in the heart forever! :)
