Couldn't get time!
You will know it when you are actually growing, when you won't have time for some things you want to do in a day, because your time is being devoted somewhere else, for grinding and hustling every damn day, to reach there, at your goals!
March 1st: It had been already a week around since I was searching for the best suited UPSC Civil Services coaching in Bangalore; again and again, I was getting this feeling that, just like I was searching Defence Coaching (SSB) in Hyderabad with Didi back in 2016, I wouldn't get a good one here and I had to move to Delhi!
About Delhi, I wanted to go, but there comes a point of life where you will feel like you are being tested by the almighty, there is a proverb,
"ठोकर नहीं खायेंगे तो जानेंगे कैसे जनाब पत्थर के बने हैं या मिट्टी के!"
(The time till you are not tested again and again, your original shine won't come, just like a diamond comes out of coal!)
I can't leave my current job, which is a mean of bread and butter for family, a lot of things changed in last few years since the unfortunate event happened at OTA Chennai, which literally snatched away the dream from my life! Yeah, I am okay, even if I am not okay, I will pretend to be okay, and I know it will be fine, someday! I am just trying to be a good human being, without harming anyone intentionally, other than those who attack me with their behavioural aspects!! Lol! So yeah, taking coaching in Bangalore was the only option available, I didn't want to relocate myself to Chennai again, being in same company!
I visited IAS Baba, Shankar IAS, Insights! I had enquired some as well, Legacy IAS, Rau's IAS, to name a few, based on my online expertise!
Finally, I selected Insights and I am glad (Till Now), that the decision is correct, I am learning well, the fee was much, but yeah, will manage it, the faculties are good. Let's see!
I felt that, Quality Civil Services preparation has become a costly affair in India, which is not affordable to all, while Civil Services being called as Toughest in the world and "The Great Indian Dream".
Yesterday and Today (2nd and 3rd March) has been quite a lot similar schedule! I am starting from 8.30 AM after breakfast and taking a bath, coming till Baiyapannahalli Metro (16kms) (Took a Parking Pass yesterday, had bought my Metro Pass a day before - Everything feels sorted! Not much mess!), Parking my scooty and Running across stairs to catch the earliest Metro possible for Attiguppe (27kms) (Not going Gym since 10 days probably, didn't feel lethargic for all the hustle tussle), Again from Attiguppe around 10 AM, rushing 1kms+ to the classroom with a long queue of so called "Aspirants", attending the class of 3 hours, having a juice or something to keep myself hydrated, rushing to Metro and all the way back to Baiyapannahalli and then, home? No home soon! You are a different breed of Aspirant, Lol, Working Professional! So, going back to work and working for 5-6 hours, just to avoid any escalations from HR as there is 3 days WFO, going back to home in late evening and work, have dinner and sleep by 12.
The day I came alone, may be last day of February, I took smal small videos and was thinking to make a reel, but, yeah, I have not come so far, just to come this far, I have come this far to be absolutely ruthless on self and work hard for this exam and clear it! (As my overstudy told, "You can do something in the best possible way, till the time you are able to do it, and when you can't, you do the next best thing!)
So, this is "The Next Best Thing".
I am working and will be working as much as I can and I will do it, if not today/tomorrow, may be day after tomorrow!
I shall reach there, definitely! This belief is very strong and it does not come just like that, it comes from past experience, when you want something and work for it every damn day, even the earth, the nature, the almighty everything works in sync to support the same!
Hardwork never goes in vain!
Jai Hind!
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